Angst? Aren’t I too old for that!? Thursday, Apr 9 2009

Okay, so I though I’d tell you stories. It’s about time, I know. But. I decided to talk about myself instead. Quelle surprise!

With too much things going on at the moment, I’m feeling very overwhelmed. I’m exhausted. On top of all those things (to which I’ll get in a moment) I’m off any reasonable sleeping rhythm, and I’m stressing completely random things for some weird reason. Like, that I maxed out my credit card. Which is not important, as I have another, and can pay them both off if I need to. But until the bill gets here (read: is automatically payed for from my account), it’s maxed out, unless I actually do something. And for some reason this is stressing me out to no end.

What I have to do, then? Well, there’s school work. I still need to graduate, remember? So there’s an essay on using your non-native language (in this specific instance Finnish) in a working environment, with a questionnaire to be sent out and so on. There’s an essay on French wine industry. There’s the development essays I still haven’t turned in (one on South African economy, one on food price crisis). There’s few exams (micro and macro) in a week. There’s econometrics essay (and the other essay and exercises and the bigger assignment I still haven’t received).

And there’s the thesis. Although, to my defence, every time I sit in my car for any period of time longer than 10 minutes, my mind turns to my thesis, and I start working that out. So really, all I have to do is sit my butt down and WRITE IT!

On top of this all, I’m throwing a party to Funny Friend. I was roped into helping with the Student Union play outfits, so I have about 8 dance tops and 9 tunics to sew. (I hate the fabric the tunics are from, it’s really annoying to sew.)

I’m trying to get the design thing off the ground.

There’s a huge pile of laundry I need to iron. And I still haven’t thrown away enough stuff to give me a piece of mind.

I’m ranting. I’m complaining. I’m being boring. I know. I’m sorry. I’ll tell you stories the next time.

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Things to do, shoes to buy… Friday, Mar 6 2009

… I’m having a very busy day.

I have plans for today. I have a To Do -list that’s long, and one I fully intend to accomplish. After few days of just lazying around, at most getting some knitting done (the Still-Nameless Wrap is turning out pretty good, even if I say so myself!) and wasting yesterday chatting with Beth the whole day (she had a crisis, she’s getting old. So naturally I was a good friend and reminded that her face is nothing compared to the stretch marks she’ll get from pregnancy. Aren’t I sweet? *laughs*), I’m finally feeling enthusiastic and energetic and ready to take over the world. Despite the fact that I overslept, as I’m on a screwed-up sleeping schedule after coming home, where I don’t go to bed until 3am and then sleep till noon, I’ve already written a chapter on my thesis, checked the BCF, and am currently writing this post. Writing my To Do -list. What’s on the list? I hear you ask. Well, my little curious ones, here’s the list.

1) University Computer Department needs a visit. Don’t get me started on the complexities of this whole thing, the short story is that I need to visit them to get the online ID I need to sign up for the exams I’m taking at this other university we’re cooperating with. So it’s administrative thing, let’s leave it at that.

2) While I’m at the University, I need to visit the library, and get some books I need for my Finnish essay. My own school doesn’t have them.

3) Before that, though, I should research the books I need, so that I don’t have to do it at the library. Luckily I can do that as soon as I’ve typed out this post.

4) As I’m going to be in that neck of the woods, I might as well stop by at my own school and fill in some more administrative paperwork…

5) … and return some books I no longer need to the library…

6) … and check out some econometrics books I need.

7) I need to tidy up at home, there’s some basic things like dishes and laundry and ironing. Nothing too bad, just pre-chaos control, you know? And there’s still some unpacking left to do. I hate unpacking.

8 ) I might squeeze in a visit to the gym. *passes the smelling salts to H* Yes, the gym. I’m actually feeling kind of good about this. And after the very pro advice I got (I totally used my connections and got both Ski Guy’s and BF’s trainers and physical coaches to plan for me, I mean, I might as well ask the truly pros, no?) I’m feeling ready to attack the elliptical machine and the cross-trainer. I’m not too keen on the weights, but cardio sounds good. So I might go fall flat on my face on the treadmill, today’s as good a day as any.

9) Crochet the hat I promised for My Friend Who Likes To Visit Third World Countries For Fun. Basically the same I’ve made myself in hot pink, only without the cap and in lion yellow. Someone stole her hat, so she needs another. I need to get it done as I’m seeing her (finally!!) shortly, and if I leave it to the last minute, I’ll just forget it. And driving and crocheting is never a good combination! So I might do that while watching Bones tonight.

10) I’m getting my thesis mojo back. Namely, the theory mojo, as I didn’t have any trouble obsessing over the trade deadline. Might write. Should write. Already started writing. I’m on a roll.

11) I might also start writing this completely unasked for and therefor all the better job application. It’s nothing grand, nothing amazing, but it could be fun. And right now, fun is very high on my list. And it’s not like it’s going to cost me something! Plus, it’s a job that could help me with the whole design-thing, which I still need to blog about, I know.

12) I need to go to the grocery store. I have absolutely no food in the house. Which is worrying, as I just went the other day. So someone’s eating my food. Must go again.

 

Now, how’s that for a list? I better get one more cup of coffee…

*kisses*

ii

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Spinning it… Friday, Feb 20 2009

Some time ago I decided that I’m no longer going to let things hold me back. That I’m going to turn the negative or problematic things around enough times until they suit me, and work in my advantage and not opposite me. I’ll spin it. (like the whole hockey/thesis thing)

Cost Accounting, the one exam I cannot seem to pass… I have a mental block, no doubt, because I just don’t like it. Now I came up with making it work for me! I’m simply going to study the subject as if I’m actually planning on starting my own business! I’ll make it personal. I’ll apply my own interests to it. Yes, seems simple and seems like something I should have been doing all along. But until now, I didn’t have the passion for something like that.

Now I do!

So I’ll just read “product” and think of something I could make, like a handbag. “Raw material costs” become “costs of yarn and sequins”, “unfinished inventory” becomes “bags that need a lining” and “profit margins” becomes “my shoe money”.

I’m so smart is scares me.

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“Question not very interesting!” Monday, Apr 21 2008

Oh my… I’ve been laughing at an email by my prof for about an hour in here. I thought about a problem for a long time last night (a model of bargaining is usually about price, and I have basically trade in goods that I’m dealing with so it doesn’t really fit). So finally I came up with a possible application of the models, but I wasn’t sure if that was just the caffeine talking, so I dropped an email to my prof (the one who stole my original thesis topic!) and asked “a quick (an possibly very stupid) question”.

He replied and basically suggested the same solution I had come up with earlier (seems I’m smarter than I thought) and ended with “Question not very interesting!” I was like “what the h***?” but then realised (it’s more obvious in Finnish) that he’d just changed his thought mid-sentence, and gone from “question not at all stupid” to “question very interesting”. But yeah, my question is boring. *grin*

And yes, I’m truly in a state where that has amused me to no end for about an hour.

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Presentation, My Friend With Huge Boobs -style Wednesday, Apr 16 2008

Last Thursday My Friend With Huge Boobs was supposed to give a presentation about her thesis. On the morning of the said presentation we spoke on the phone.

My Friend With Huge Boobs: I have no idea what to wear!

I suggested several outfits, from what I remembered her to have. She didn’t feel like any of them.

My Friend With Huge Boobs: It has to be something comfortable as I’ll have to stand there, in front of everyone…

Then she carried on for bout 20 minutes about how idiotic it was that we have to give a presentation on paper everyone has to read in advance for the meeting.

My Friend With Huge Boobs: That’s it! I’m coming naked! I’m just going to say ‘I didn’t come up with anything to wear, so I came naked!’”

She didn’t, in the end.

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